My grandad's got to have a cardiovascular scan of some sort tomorrow, and his operation is 10th July (he's got to go in on 9th July). I'm guessing as he's 70-something with all the other health problems like emphysema he'll be in hospital for quite a bit, maybe 10 days plus. Only vaguely positive thing is that it's at our local hospital so we can visit more easily.

Apart from the grandad front, everything's good. Got this week off because of year 10 and 11 induction/visit days etc. A little cruel as we have a week off then we have to go back for a week before summer :P

Had a lovely weekend, was on a Red Cross duty Saturday at a mini teenage music fest in a local park. Loads of amazing local bands/singers playing, some of whom I knew. And it was beautifully sunny all weekend as well. Sunday, went to Upton jazz festival in the afternoon. Met one of Dad's IT customer people, really nice guy and his wife and two kids. Lovely day in the sun, played two games of pool (YES I WON ONE :D), had a gorgeous pork bap and some chips with tomato ketchup on... hmm. Upton Blues festival's 17/18/19th July. Always the best festival and hopefully we'll meet up with my dad's friend and his family again, this time they're going to bring their boat too <3

Got a lot of stuff to look forward to also! Got work experience at a doctor's surgery 13th-17th July, Ree and Caz are coming to Worcester on 20th July [eeep so excited], might have some more work experience at the local hospital that week too. Going to Birmingham shopping with my best friend, Em on 29th July (we were going on her actual birthday, the day after, but my parents decided we were going on holiday on the 30th instead!).

So in the next three weeks, my grandad will have to have something done about this aneurysm. He's got to have further tests, an appointment with the consultant anaesthetist (to see exactly how huge the risk will be of an operation) and possibly with some other consultant before the operation even goes ahead.

I'm scared he'll die. But I know if he doesn't have something done, it could burst or whatever at any time and then he's got no chance.

Other things... I've been to Birmingham City uni (yesterday - and to the Bullring too) and Worcester uni (today). I really do like Worcester, seriously considering staying home now, it'd be cheaper for one which is always a good thing.

Also been to Alcester folk festival this afternoon. Sitting in the pub garden with a burger and a few glasses of coke & lemon slices, with my immediate family and two family friends (damn, they're family for sure!) who mean everything to me. Then we went back to theirs for a cup of tea and I had some gorgeous Carte D'Or (Crema Di Marscapone) ice-cream at theirs too mmm. yes. :D

apart from that, I'm vair excited as Ree texted me and said she's booked tickets for Worcester on 20th July. eeek, fun times to come.
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My grandad had his results yesterday. Apparently they called him in not so much because of the aneurysm (which has grown slightly) but because there's some flap thing around his heart that's letting blood where it's not meant to be. And on the scan he had last week, they couldn't tell much about what said flap was, etc, so today he had to have a CT scan. He's getting results next week, my dad's taking him to our local hospital.

Went to Bristol UWE open day yesterday. I absolutely ADORE it, it's so lovely and friendly there and the campus is beautiful. <3 Also went to our little higher education evening thing last night (pouring rain, Mum tripped and half the leaflets etc fell out into a puddle. We laughed, a lot.). Got a prospectus for Swansea, which looked quite lovely and practical in terms of placement hospitals near campus. Don't think my dad wants to drive me to Swansea for the open day though, haha. Got a leaflet about volunteering at the children's hospice too.

On the subject of volunteering and open days still, got to go to Keele on Sunday for the open day, and have two first aid duties soon with the Red Cross; one on 18th July and the other on 27th. Should be good! :D

So that's about it for the last few days to be honest!

JEN CAMPBELL YOU ARE BRILLIANT.
just very excited listening to you now on the radio! I want your accent :P

anyway. happy happy happy, exams are OVER. none until January! And it went well too. ohyesss!

worry worry worry

About a lot of things.

Tomorrow is my last AS exam, the second History exam which is on anti-semitism in Nazi Germany. Last week (Tuesday) I had the first one on Russia and Germany 1871-1914. I am pretty sure I failed; my mind went blank, timing went to pot and I wrote the same for a 12 mark question as I did for a 24 mark question (three quarters of a side). Chemistry went alright and Biology I thought went good. But I don't want to fail History, because then I cannot take it next year. I cannot bear the thought of doing Chemistry next year even if I get an A which is not going to happen. My parents want me to but I can't cope with having to do another year of that dreaded, damned horrible subject! I'm worried that I will fail History completely and then do badly on Chemistry like I'm sure I will, and then mess up my chances of going to uni to do Nursing as I want to do so badly.

The other thing I'm very, very worried about is my grandad. Not so long ago (about four/five months tops) he went to the doctors and had a scan. They found an aortic aneurysm but it wasn't large or serious enough to have serious concern about. He has to have regular scans now to keep tabs on it and he had one of those last week. We were round there on Saturday and they'd had a phonecall within 48 hours (which is unusual) from my local hospital (they live half an hour away and it's not their local hospital, which was another unusual thing) saying come in Wednesday lunchtime for the results. My granny is very worried (to the extent she felt ill) and my grandad said he wouldn't be surprised if he was in hospital by next weekend. My parents (from talking to my mum afterwards about it) both think it's unlikely it's just the hospital being efficient for once, although they did say it could be that to my grandparents to reassure them. Thing is, they have to weigh up the risk. My grandad is 73 (I'm pretty sure) and he has emphysema and diabetes, yet he still smokes a lot. His breathing is awful and if they have to operate on this, the anaesthetic and whatever might kill him. However if they don't do anything, I don't know what will happen either, it's probably risky too. My dad said himself it's not a good situation to be in. :( So I'm really, really scared of losing my grandad as well :(

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So I decided to make this blog. My parents blocked LJ on my computer and I mourn it in huge amounts, but I wanted somewhere to talk about stuff like I used to over there, so here it is.